GREY SKIES

I've lost count of the number of times I've played the song...You had a bad day.
But wow..today has been a BAD DAY. It’s partly because I am young and haven’t tasted all the lemons of life. Today, I was served a huge one at work. I was done wrong by my boss. I feel betrayed and have lost ALL respect for her. I got the raw end of a deal and not to go into LONG detail…in so many words I was promised a raise in July for the extra responsibility I have taken on at work for about the past 2 years (I’ve done the work of 2 specialist so the center could save money, so they wouldn’t have to hire another me). Then today through word of mouth I found out she is changing my position (she didn’t have the decency to tell me herself) giving it away to someone else just in time for them to recieve the raise and not me. There’s a lot more details to the story having to do with the boss playing favorites and catering to certain individuals. I wanted so badly to tell her off and put her in her place and then turn to leave without EVER coming back. It all sounded like a good plan..I could stay home with my boy (which is my ultimate career dream). But then the whole idea of not having food to eat or money to pay the bills hung over my head. Today I didn’t want to be a responsible ADULT or a CHRISTIAN. Honestly I wanted to throw a temper tantrum screaming how unfair the whole situation was and just say what was on my mind. My dad always told me that life isn’t fair…I hate it when he is right. Rest assured I didn’t act like a heathen 2 year old. I did confront my boss in a respectful and tactful way and spent most of the day crying out of frustration and anger. I’m not a quitter and for that reason I’m not throwing in the towel. But I’m not going to make myself venerable to be jerked around again, so I’ll start pursuing other options. My sweet husband told me he would follow me anywhere. In my mind I’m trying to figure this all out and what my next move will be. Today was a hard blow and a hard lesson to learn. I’m praying for patience, wisdom and to stop crying for heavens sakes!!! I know it’s all in God’s plan and timing but I sure would like to take a glimpse of his calendar.