Keeping it REAL

I feel I must have a disclaimer in what I am about to write. This post is not to diminish the JOY of motherhood. I love my little guy and love that I am able to stay at home with him. BUT…

In keeping it real….Jeff left Sunday for a week in Phoenix. In reality this is the LONGEST amount of time I have been with Ty 24/7. Granted Jeff has been gone before but Ty and I usually leave to visit family to help to time pass. Not this time, it’s been me and Ty and ONLY me and Ty for the past week, technically just 5 days…and the kids is driving me CRAZY! He is everywhere, he follows me around and there isn’t a space in the house I can go without him tagging behind. When I try to type, he trying to sit on my lap, when I try to use the bathroom, he is standing right in front of me… this morning I made breakfast for him and thought I would have time to enjoy a relaxing bath. However the boy chowed down his food and before I had the bathtub full of water he was running in to the bathroom stripping down ready to jump into the bath with me. Since Jeff is gone I’ve been letting Ty sleep in my bed at night. The kid knows nothing about personal space. He is all over me every time I move and twist and turn it’s like he’s attached and just flows with me. I wake to find his sweet like arm around my neck “holding me” but in reality choking me. Yesterday he woke me up around 7am by putting his hand over my mouth, and saying it was time to get up.
I called Jeff to get some sympathy and his answer was just get out to the house…hello, I have to take him with me, that’s getting away from the house but not from Ty.

There are several important factors that have drove me to this state of being. One is the cold factor, Ty will usually play outside for lengthens of time during the day but it’s been so cold that we’ve been stuck inside with strict instructions not to drive on the roads unless it is mandatory (cabin fever has sunk in). The second factor is that Jeff is gone, when he comes home at night Ty shifts his attention to Jeff and therefore releasing me. But what I believe to be the most important factor is that Elle, our dog, ran away last week and never came back. She was a little rat terrier and the perfect size and activity level for a 2 year old. I put a lease on her while she was in the house and against Elle’s will she went with Ty everywhere. Ty hates being in any room of the house by himself but if he had Elle he didn’t mind…so for sanity sakes it looks like we’re going to need another dog.

The good news is that we’re picking Jeff up from the airport TONIGHT!